Embrace the panic attack.

My anxieties have gone through the roof over the last few days. I have been a bit of a mess. Mild to severe panic attacks are a daily occurrence for me and over the many years of having them, I'm very good at recognising and dealing with them. My point of call with a panic... Continue Reading →

Just another person living.

I think my biggest fear in life is living as "just another person". The thing is, I am just another person to most people. To the thousands of people I walk past and never interact with, those I know who don't get to know me more than on the surface level and even those ignorant people... Continue Reading →

anti-impostor syndrome

Impostor syndrome (also known as impostorphenomenon, impostorism, fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud". Thats a straight copy and paste from wikipedia. I thought I'd stick it there just to clarify what is... Continue Reading →

The plight of the morning runner

I get up at 5:40am on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. I get up at 6:20am on Saturday and Sunday. On Wednesday I get up at 6am on the hour. On Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and either Saturday or Sunday (sometimes both) I run. Other than your usual bathroom antics and a quick drive to... Continue Reading →

Life update #1

Oh my, oh my. Rollercoaster of emotions this week. Not an extreme rollercoaster, more like a tame local theme park's rickety fun ride than some ludicrous machine in Alton Towers. Still though, I've felt the ups and downs this week and my best solution is to write about it on the internet. This week has... Continue Reading →

Moving.

Tomorrow I finally move out. On February 19th 2018, I moved from my humble little studio flat in Bushey where I'd been living by myself, back to my parents house in Cambridgeshire. At the time it felt bitter sweet to be leaving the Hertfordshire-London boundaries; I'd established a life there that not many people who... Continue Reading →

New York City

Every day. Every single day. For the past 2 years, almost every single day, I get the overwhelming urge to just go to New York. I'd like to do it completely spontaneously and not really tell anyone. Just disappear for a week or so in the big apple. Indulge in great city's the atmosphere, run... Continue Reading →

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